Why do I dance? I by no means actually requested myself that query. My preliminary love for dance was visceral and full; once I began as a youngster, my mind and physique had discovered an exercise that would eat my ideas and my schedule, and I accepted that with pleasure. At 17, once I moved to New York Metropolis to pursue a profession in dance, it grew to become my skilled id and my objective.
However the pandemic put so many roadblocks on that life. Locked down in my condominium, I couldn’t faucet dance (too loud), and I couldn’t swing dance (no companion). There have been no social dances to attend, no in-person lessons to show or take, and there actually had been no gigs that obligated me to “be” a dancer. There have been only a few events the place I even felt like dancing, and so, for the primary time, I didn’t.
I did different issues: I performed piano. I biked round New York Metropolis. I learn 30 books that had sat in my residence for years. I used to be shocked to really feel happy by these dance-less days. With out dance, I nonetheless felt like me.
However when the world “reopened,” I returned to my common routine of performances, dance festivals and work conferences. I used to be able to do one thing, and work (miraculously) got here again. I used to be desirous to reconnect with my chosen household of inventive collaborators, and I used to be excited to grow to be, once more, a dancer.
However one thing has modified. I really feel completely different—I don’t really feel just like the dance-obsessed pre-pandemic model of myself. My new self loves dance, however my new self additionally loves biking, studying and enjoying piano.
My first ballet instructor stated to me, “Dance is a illness of types. It’s not one thing you select to do; it’s one thing you should do.” I used to agree. However now, it appears like one thing I select to do, and I like that.
The choice to bop has been, and continues to be, so good for me. I’m glad I've dance; it’s the fixed. It’s the lens by means of which I expertise every thing else. It’s merely probably the most attention-grabbing factor I’ve ever chosen to do.